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tulagirl said:
Sigh, so sad this is. Hugs


I have been thinking about things I had when I was young I miss. I know I can't possibly fill my house with everything, but there was a book in particular I wish I could get my hands on in mint condition. Right now I have it in terrible condition. In fact the entire inside of the book is upside down. I did replace my childhood Ernie and Bert. I found my little mini Kermit when I was cleaning the upstairs out.

Shock of my life though, the window unit is full of mold and it is just a royal mess. Time to hire a handyman. Then I spilled perfume all over the floor. Way to go Tula. Smells good but wonder how long that is going to smell up the entire room.
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What book was it? I have had to replace many books I love and it's hard when one is so old you can't find it again.
 
I am just tring so hard today not to want to disappear. Been fighting depression for two days now and my meds are just not working. I am going to bed till this goes away. I just don't trust myself doing anything else. I hate these moods they come out of no where and they linger and linger.
 
Ology said:
I am just tring so hard today not to want to disappear. Been fighting depression for two days now and my meds are just not working. I am going to bed till this goes away. I just don't trust myself doing anything else. I hate these moods they come out of no where and they linger and linger.
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Get to feeling better.
 
Well this week is getting better for me which is good and I'm planning on seeing IT 2017 in the theaters sometime soon. I'm very late to watching it but I don't care. Now it won't be so crowded when I go into seeing it. :) I've always loved horror movies since I was younger. :catpumpkin:
 
Iono why I tell my mom think before you make me a plate from my aunts house. I am a picky eater always have been. I ask her think about what I will eat and please don't get the weird stuff. I hate wasting food.
And of course she put cole slaw and carrot salad on my plate and the stuff I will eat there barely any food on the plate. I give up. I need more green beans and dressing not a half of a plate of coleslaw and carrot salad YUCK!
 
I know I have been scarce and I apologize. My life has been... hectic. Or hellish, your choice. And a bit ago we discovered the AC had leaked and ruined half the living room floor. It was under things so only when the couch started going THROUGH the floor did we see that Holy Cow we had a problem. So now Action Hank and I have had to replace the flooring. It's good in a way, I'm getting to teach him a lot, but the work is killing my hands. At least I'll get pretty new flooring so there's a bright side I guess. If it will just show up so we can install it and not have furniture piled all over. And now I have three kittens to bottlefeed. I have a foster cat that's nursing, but she has 7 kittens of her own and refuses to help me. Sigh. And the depression, always the stupid depression. I hate it so much because it makes me hate me. One day I will beat it.

I'm going to try really hard to show up every day, but so often I fail.
 
evilbunnyfoofoo said:
I know I have been scarce and I apologize. My life has been... hectic. Or hellish, your choice. And a bit ago we discovered the AC had leaked and ruined half the living room floor. It was under things so only when the couch started going THROUGH the floor did we see that Holy Cow we had a problem. So now Action Hank and I have had to replace the flooring. It's good in a way, I'm getting to teach him a lot, but the work is killing my hands. At least I'll get pretty new flooring so there's a bright side I guess. If it will just show up so we can install it and not have furniture piled all over. And now I have three kittens to bottlefeed. I have a foster cat that's nursing, but she has 7 kittens of her own and refuses to help me. Sigh. And the depression, always the stupid depression. I hate it so much because it makes me hate me. One day I will beat it.

I'm going to try really hard to show up every day, but so often I fail.
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Hang in there girly I know how you feel with depression. Were here for you if you need us Bunny
 
Thanks to a hunter camera we found out a Raccoon is what kill mine and my moms Hens. We only have Roho the rooster and Hedwig and Goldie left.
This Coon is going down and I like animals but this Coon Kill my baby Princess and kill poor Weasly and Echo ( she was so tiny) and I will not have it killing more of my pets.
were baiting traps to catch it. I hope we do
 
I think my toenails on my injured foot became dead at one point because the top halves of them all look dead and the bottom halves of my nails look newer like they're growing and pushing the old nails out >___>

It doesn't end there though
2 of the toes are suuuuuper sore at the tops like possibly infected by the nail disturbances x____x

When I thought things were getting better, sheesh
It's like things just found another way to be weird
 
Well my Halloween is not going to happen. No point in trying to get the costume I want or plan my night with my nieces.
I should have known better then to hope.
 
Ology said:
Well my Halloween is not going to happen. No point in trying to get the costume I want or plan my night with my nieces.
I should have known better then to hope.
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If you don't mind me asking, what happened Ology?
 
Obsidianleaf said:
If you don't mind me asking, what happened Ology?
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It's a routin thing and this year it's got to change and it cuts out the one thing for the past 5 years I have gotton back into and very much enjoyed. Trick or treating.
This year my mom and aunt instead of the family get together and trick or treating with my nieces. Have to help out at a trunk or treat at my parents church. I've been told we still will go to my aunts neighborhood and trick or treat but I highly doubt it.
I don't like change especially holiday ones.
I am sorry if it sounds selfish and like a over grown kid but I can't do the whole adulting anyway. I am just used to a routin and this kinda freaks me out depresses me and just make me pout up.
I have asbergers I am not using it as an excuse but it's like the world ends when thing change. So yeah I am not in my Halloween routine.

I don't like it and my mom ask me to help with the church thing. No way I would do that. I have to give up my routine and I am not making myself depress going out and doing the ADULT routine on Halloween. Not going to happen. Call me shellfish call me a over grown kid I have been called worse by my parents and others.
I don't like going to thing like this I hate crowds.
Also the people in my aunts little set of houses know me and don't mind me trick or treating if I tried that at the church thing they call me weird or worse.
Also the bible belt at least where I live don't do the scary stuff at these things its a fall fest blah! As a kid they were fun and spooky but the way the church is now its no that way and is boring. I don't go to church for one I hate crowds, I cant stand being hugged or touched and they do that at my parent church.
Also I cant stand the where have you been you should come more going to church is important or you go to the bad place.
Growing up the church was not like that when I was a kid and the original pastor was there but once he left and I got older it all went south.
So Nothing against churches if you go to them but I don't like the getting together part of church. I also have different views of Higher powers when are not what everyone else see so yeah. I don't get along with the whole way my parent church and its things are run,
I will either freak out at the truck or treat or say something that will be not nice if I am told to come to church or go to the bad place.

I just want my aunt to cook chile and my family to get together and me and my niece go around the little area where my aunt live and trick or treat for a hour or so and then go back eat and talk and me and my niece can trade candy.
I don't care if Its childish it make me happy and want to get out and there is very little that make me want to get out and do things. Also I don't have a lot of things to make me happy so when one thing is messed up its depressing
 
Ology said:
It's a routin thing and this year it's got to change and it cuts out the one thing for the past 5 years I have gotton back into and very much enjoyed. Trick or treating.
This year my mom and aunt instead of the family get together and trick or treating with my nieces. Have to help out at a trunk or treat at my parents church. I've been told we still will go to my aunts neighborhood and trick or treat but I highly doubt it.
I don't like change especially holiday ones.
I am sorry if it sounds selfish and like a over grown kid but I can't do the whole adulting anyway. I am just used to a routin and this kinda freaks me out depresses me and just make me pout up.
I have asbergers I am not using it as an excuse but it's like the world ends when thing change. So yeah I am not in my Halloween routine.

I don't like it and my mom ask me to help with the church thing. No way I would do that. I have to give up my routine and I am not making myself depress going out and doing the ADULT routine on Halloween. Not going to happen. Call me shellfish call me a over grown kid I have been called worse by my parents and others.
I don't like going to thing like this I hate crowds.
Also the people in my aunts little set of houses know me and don't mind me trick or treating if I tried that at the church thing they call me weird or worse.
Also the bible belt at least where I live don't do the scary stuff at these things its a fall fest blah! As a kid they were fun and spooky but the way the church is now its no that way and is boring. I don't go to church for one I hate crowds, I cant stand being hugged or touched and they do that at my parent church.
Also I cant stand the where have you been you should come more going to church is important or you go to the bad place.
Growing up the church was not like that when I was a kid and the original pastor was there but once he left and I got older it all went south.
So Nothing against churches if you go to them but I don't like the getting together part of church. I also have different views of Higher powers when are not what everyone else see so yeah. I don't get along with the whole way my parent church and its things are run,
I will either freak out at the truck or treat or say something that will be not nice if I am told to come to church or go to the bad place.

I just want my aunt to cook chile and my family to get together and me and my niece go around the little area where my aunt live and trick or treat for a hour or so and then go back eat and talk and me and my niece can trade candy.
I don't care if Its childish it make me happy and want to get out and there is very little that make me want to get out and do things. Also I don't have a lot of things to make me happy so when one thing is messed up its depressing
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That's understandable. Since you can't go, you could always watch horror movies and eat candy. That's sounds more fun than interacting with a bunch of people you have trouble interacting with. Sorry to hear you won't be trick or treating this year Ology.
 
Obsidianleaf said:
That's understandable. Since you can't go, you could always watch horror movies and eat candy. That's sounds more fun than interacting with a bunch of people you have trouble interacting with. Sorry to hear you won't be trick or treating this year Ology.
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oh no I know what will happen I will shut down and wait for the day to be over. It happen so much I know how that day will be so horror movie and candy don't get me out of a shut down.
 
Even so I cant get the last bit of money up for my costume so I cant go as what I want so why bother. I still will enjoy the swap and costume pony contest but I have no mojo anymore for October. So thanks mom for telling about this Halloween is no fun this year.
 
Ology said:
Even so I cant get the last bit of money up for my costume so I cant go as what I want so why bother. I still will enjoy the swap and costume pony contest but I have no mojo anymore for October. So thanks mom for telling about this Halloween is no fun this year.
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Poor Ology.:( Maybe next year will be better.
 
Obsidianleaf said:
Poor Ology.:( Maybe next year will be better.
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I doubt it. Sorry glass half empty person here and I am just in a mood sorry if I seem like I am ill at the world.
 
Ology said:
I doubt it. Sorry glass half empty person here and I am just in a mood sorry if I seem like I am ill at the world.
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It's okay Ology. This year has been terrible for you. I wouldn't expect anyone who's gone through what you have to be generally hopeful right now
 
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