Keeping my head in the clouds
- Dec 26, 2015
Many of you already know this. I tore my rotator cuff last year. They said the tear was to small to be a bother. So I've been added shoulder strengthening to my endless physical therapy exercises and I've been using it regularly. It hasn't gotten any better. At the beach a couple weeks ago I got slammed by a soccer ball in my bad arm just below my shoulder joint and slightly on the back of my arm. Now my hand goes numb every day. I get pain from the hot coal that resides inside my shoulder all the way down to my middle finger. It's so much worse than before. I actually cried. Not from pain. From frustration that this may just be another "learn to live with it" situation. I don't know how many more conditions that cause pain I "learn to live with". It's my dominant arm and I can lift a can of soda. My new, third, orthopedic surgeon is on vacation and I get to see him when he returns. My appointment is September 18th. We discussed a surgery to remove scar tissue, repair the small tear, and check for any other issues. I'm so hoping he'll be able to help. Not having use of my arm for a month in order to have a more tolerable pain level is worth it. The issue is that a surgery may not help since I have a 45 degree scoliosis curve directly between my shoulder blades, and a reverse cervical curve, which are both connected to the nerve network that goes through my shoulder. I can even text or poke out this post with my good hand. It takes forever with my left hand. Sorry, just need to tell someone besides my psychologist. He's paid to talk to me.