Good news to share

This week has been a mixed bag of good and bad, but I'm trying to focus on the good.

1. I finally received my First Nations status a couple weeks ago after waiting 14 months (but really, I've been waiting my whole life for it). My MP's office helped light a fire under Indigenous and Northern Affairs and my registration was completed soon after.

2. My MLA's office put me in contact with a representative from First Nation's Health and they have taken care of my $600 debt to the medical services plan. What a relief.

3. I can now complete my tax returns for the last two years and hopefully get some money back.

4. I finished up cleaning, pricing and photographing my G3's for sale and I'm almost ready with my G1's for sale. It's about 60 G1's and 25 G3's. I still have the G1 babies to get ready and my extra accessories, but this will hopefully bring in some much needed cash since my Employment Insurance ran out last month.

5. A special volunteer position came up within Search and Rescue for the province. They are looking for Peer Support people for Critical Incident Stress. I have been working directly with individuals who have experienced critical incident stress for 20 years. I'm super qualified and I'm hoping they choose me.

5. I just happened upon a black Friday seat sale with Westjet and I'm flying home Dec 5-13 to see my family. The return flight from Vancouver to Toronto was only $280 and I had a $125 dollar credit.

6. Now this is super exciting - I should be able to bring the remainder of my pony collection home with me. I think I only have about 100-150 ponies left in Toronto. SO EXCITING!!

I still don't have a job, I got into a fight with a daycare worker today in front of a bunch of 4 year olds and I'm having to fight Sunwing Vacations to get the $1750 they owe me, but all the other nice things made the day brighter and that's where I'm focusing my attention.

Oooh, congratulations! Sounds like a lot of things are going your way. I hope the trend continues! :3 Have a fantastic trip home!

And also looking forward to looking through your sales photos. ;3 (lol)

Your ability to be positive is amazing @Cactusflower You deserve all the good coming your way.

Thanks ladies. It's really, really hard to stay positive when the poop is raining on your head. I know we've all been there and I definitely still have my moments of despair. Sometimes I sink right into the blackness and host a pity party for one. I let myself go full on Eeyore and you know what, I end up laughing at my own ridiculousness.

I end up belting out angsty music as loud as possible, then I get to the laughing. Here's one of my current favorites, thanks to Evelyn. It's called "pity party".

Man, that's just like a Friday night around my house. Except, that I would never harm a toy. I love the song and video. Haven't heard it before. I have playlist I made called Pity party for one.

Wahoo!!! That’s an amazing deal you got for the flight. Maybe I should take a look and surprise my bff for a weekend trip.

It’s so nice that you’ll be able to come home and visit for awhile before the holidays. Even better you can take more of your collection back with you.

But remember when you come, it’s been chilly and snowy here so bring your Toronto cold weather gear with you. Lol

Me, too. My nurse for my surgery even wrote that I was an easy patient that gave no crap, since my veins are a bit abused from all the testing, I told her it didn't matter where she put the iv or if she had to poke more than once.

They tell me I have some diagnosis that they can't help me with except for pain meds and then give me an odd look when I laugh and turn down meds. Doctors can be very amusing once they relax and get to know you. I'm not even taking pain killers now and they thought that was "so strong" of me.

I'm having a problem staying positive today. I went to a recruiting event and they said that applicants need to be drug free for 2 years. And then I received a message from a member of my Search and Rescue and I don't know if they are going to support me in applying for the Critical Incident Response position. The member is a female who I originally loved, because she is nice and always doing things for the team, but she has been weird with me lately. I'm worried it's that stupid female competition thing. I hope not. I hate it when people get like that. We are a team. No one is better than anyone else.

I'm having massive issues with noise in my condo. The gist of the problem is this: there is a walk way and paved area right outside my patio. Some idiot the opposite building Strata decided to put up a basketball net and it's been driving me crazy. We also have a daycare that brings about 20 kids outside to play in this area during the day and they literally scream the whole time. The area is not a playground, in fact, it's a fire route. I've tried everything to get this taken care of. I've messaged the other buildings Strata and they refused to take it down. I called the fire department about the fire route. I called the noise by law people. Everything and no results. I'm going to stay up late one night and remove it myself.

Anyway, the fight with the daycare people the other day was ridiculous. I have asked them nicely once before to take the kids to the park ACROSS the street, where they won't be disturbing anyone. They keep coming back. The other day, I went out again and tried to be nice, but finally I snapped in front of the kids. I explained to them twice that the noise was bothering me and could you please take the kids to an appropriate place to play, as this is private property and a fire route. She starts arguing with me saying, "Well, I see no signs that this is private property". I said "Would you walk into someone's backyard with 20 screaming kids and then try to tell them there were no signs". Anyway, after arguing with me for a few minutes. I just looked at her and said "How about you stop being an A hole. I told you it's bothering me and that's all I should have to say". Argh. I'm so frustrated. People are just so crappy sometimes.

So, there you have it, I suck at staying positive sometimes.

I literally just hid in my pony room for about an hour this afternoon. I used to be excited for the weekends, because working people are usually off, except that I have no friends. Ok, I suppose I have a couple, but they suck. They really do. I feel bad saying that, but when I really need someone to talk to, I call the mental health line, like I did this afternoon. All I wanted was to find someone to go for a walk with me and not one person I knew could spare the time. It's always like this.

Anyway, sorry, got ranty there, but the positive part is that I did come here and I aired my thoughts and I feel supported here and that's something. In fact, it's a big thing.

I'm sorry. I would have gone for a walk with you.

I know you would have. Thanks.

A girlfriend who I'm just starting to get to know came over and we hung out. It was kinda nice having another human to hang out with.

I would come walk with you in a heartbeat, you sound really cool! Sorry to hear about that daycare, they sound terrible, and you handled yourself way better than I would have (having screamed out my windows at people on occasion when they’re not being considerate of their surroundings). I don’t know if you get snow in BC, but if you do, I hope you get just enough to make everyone reconsider going outside.

Awww, thanks Kittensquid.

I ended up getting out for a few hours today for a hike. And then, shortly after I got home, I was called out for search and rescue this evening. A hiker fell and injured her knee and couldn't walk. We had to stretcher carry her a few km out over some pretty nasty terrain and like four stream crossings. Overall a five hour mission. Excellent team effort and she was a super nice lady. I feel really good now. I hiked about 20 km today and stretcher carrying is awkward as heck, so I got a great workout. Also, worth noting was that our member was there and acting normal again. I've realized that although the women on my team are fantastic, they also have many moments were they clearly feel threatened by a new woman on the team. I wish they would just chill out. Speaking of chilled out. I'm freezing my butt off. I got a chill to the bone tonight. It's been going down to freezing at night.

Yayyyyy!!!!! I'm so Happy for You CactusFlower!!!!

Sometimes when sh*t hits the fan and al that crap....but then it turns around and you get hit with allot of goodies!!!

My whole Search and Rescue team received a message about the Peer Support position today, suggesting it's only for members and not Members in Training. I haven't been getting a very supportive vibe from a lot of the team members. What I don't understand is if you have a team member (training or otherwise) who is super experienced in the area of the position, completely willing to donate loads of their free time for the position and is showing enthusiasm in the team and everything we do, why would you not want them apply? I don't think the team realizes how negative they keep coming off when I ask about training or opportunities. If they had a reasonable and logical reason for not wanting me to apply, then I would understand, but as far as I can tell, this position is unlikely to take away from my own team in any way and it won't cost the team anything. In fact, wouldn't you want a member of your own team to represent in something that they are good at? I swear I'm getting a vibe sometimes from some people that they don't actually care what experience you come with, you aren't a real member until you are voted in after a year. Sigh. Yes, I'm venting again.

Sometimes, people seem to just not truly care about about others. They'll speak nicely to your face and speak badly about you when you aren't there.

Met up with Uftaki today which was a super nice way to start the day.

I was called out for a missing person at 1pm and was searching in the rain, mud, bramble bushes and darkness until 7pm. I'm covered in a ton of tiny stab wounds from those **** spikey bushes and I was soaking wet. Good news is that the guy was found. I'm tired as heck and my shoulder is totally screwed from this week, but getting out of the house and keeping my mind busy has done wonders for my mental health.

Awe! It must be so nice to have another pony collector who lives close to you to hang out with.