Pied Piper of Ponies
- Jan 20, 2018
This week has been a mixed bag of good and bad, but I'm trying to focus on the good.
I end up belting out angsty music as loud as possible, then I get to the laughing. Here's one of my current favorites, thanks to Evelyn. It's called "pity party".Thanks ladies. It's really, really hard to stay positive when the poop is raining on your head. I know we've all been there and I definitely still have my moments of despair. Sometimes I sink right into the blackness and host a pity party for one. I let myself go full on Eeyore and you know what, I end up laughing at my own ridiculousness.
Man, that's just like a Friday night around my house. Except, that I would never harm a toy. I love the song and video. Haven't heard it before. I have playlist I made called Pity party for one.I end up belting out angsty music as loud as possible, then I get to the laughing. Here's one of my current favorites, thanks to Evelyn. It's called "pity party".
Being able to laugh at adversity is one of the most valuable survival skills my mother taught me. Laughter really is one of the best medicines. Sometimes I find it very hard, but if I can, I laugh. I have a very morbid, black sense of humour that's saved my worthless hide more than once.Thanks ladies. It's really, really hard to stay positive when the poop is raining on your head. I know we've all been there and I definitely still have my moments of despair. Sometimes I sink right into the blackness and host a pity party for one. I let myself go full on Eeyore and you know what, I end up laughing at my own ridiculousness.
Me, too. My nurse for my surgery even wrote that I was an easy patient that gave no crap, since my veins are a bit abused from all the testing, I told her it didn't matter where she put the iv or if she had to poke more than once.Being able to laugh at adversity is one of the most valuable survival skills my mother taught me. Laughter really is one of the best medicines. Sometimes I find it very hard, but if I can, I laugh. I have a very morbid, black sense of humour that's saved my worthless hide more than once.
I'm sorry. I would have gone for a walk with you.I'm having a problem staying positive today. I went to a recruiting event and they said that applicants need to be drug free for 2 years. And then I received a message from the VP of my Search and Rescue and I don't know if they are going to support me in applying for the Critical Incident Response position. The VP is a female who I originally loved, because she is nice and always doing things for the team, but she has been weird with me lately. I'm worried it's that stupid female competition thing. I hope not. I hate it when people get like that. We are a team. No one is better than anyone else.
I'm having massive issues with noise in my condo. The gist of the problem is this: there is a walk way and paved area right outside my patio. Some idiot the opposite building Strata decided to put up a basketball net and it's been driving me crazy. We also have a daycare that brings about 20 kids outside to play in this area during the day and they literally scream the whole time. The area is not a playground, in fact, it's a fire route. I've tried everything to get this taken care of. I've messaged the other buildings Strata and they refused to take it down. I called the fire department about the fire route. I called the noise by law people. Everything and no results. I'm going to stay up late one night and remove it myself.
Anyway, the fight with the daycare people the other day was ridiculous. I have asked them nicely once before to take the kids to the park ACROSS the street, where they won't be disturbing anyone. They keep coming back. The other day, I went out again and tried to be nice, but finally I snapped in front of the kids. I explained to them twice that the noise was bothering me and could you please take the kids to an appropriate place to play, as this is private property and a fire route. She starts arguing with me saying, "Well, I see no signs that this is private property". I said "Would you walk into someone's with 20 screaming kids and then try to tell them there were no signs". Anyway, after arguing with me for a few minutes. I just looked at her and said "How about you stop being an A hole. I told you it's bothering me and that's all I should have to say". Argh. I'm so frustrated. People are just so crappy sometimes.
So, there you have it, I suck at staying positive sometimes.
I literally just hid in my pony room for about an hour this afternoon. I used to be excited for the weekends, because working people are usually off, except that I have no friends. Ok, I suppose I have a couple, but they suck. They really do. I feel bad saying that, but when I really need someone to talk to, I call the mental health line, like I did this afternoon. All I wanted was to find someone to go for a walk with me and not one person I knew could spare the time. It's always like this.
Anyway, sorry, got ranty there, but the positive part is that I did come here and I aired my thoughts and I feel supported here and that's something. In fact, it's a big thing.
Sometimes, people seem to just not truly care about about others. They'll speak nicely to your face and speak badly about you when you aren't there.My whole Search and Rescue team received a message about the Peer Support position today, suggesting it's only for members and not Members in Training. I haven't been getting a very supportive vibe from a lot of the team members. What I don't understand is if you have a team member (training or otherwise) who is super experienced in the area of the position, completely willing to donate loads of their free time for the position and is showing enthusiasm in the team and everything we do, why would you not want them apply? I don't think the team realizes how negative they keep coming off when I ask about training or opportunities. If they had a reasonable and logical reason for not wanting me to apply, then I would understand, but as far as I can tell, this position is unlikely to take away from my own team in any way and it won't cost the team anything. In fact, wouldn't you want a member of your own team to represent in something that they are good at? I swear I'm getting a vibe sometimes from some people that they don't actually care what experience you come with, you aren't a real member until you are voted in after a year. Sigh. Yes, I'm venting again.
Awe! It must be so nice to have another pony collector who lives close to you to hang out with.Met up with Uftaki today which was a super nice way to start the day.
I was called out for a missing person at 1pm and was searching in the rain, mud, bramble bushes and darkness until 7pm. I'm covered in a ton of tiny stab wounds from those **** spikey bushes and I was soaking wet. Good news is that the guy was found. I'm tired as heck and my shoulder is totally screwed from this week, but getting out of the house and keeping my mind busy has done wonders for my mental health.