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I finally got over my fear and put music on my phone. I have a lot of irrational fears about things
 
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So... my blind spot is permanent. It did shrink a little bit, though. I'm under strict orders to avoid my known migraine triggers like the plague.
 
evilbunnyfoofoo said:
So didja buy it?

My problem isn't shelving, I can build whatever I need. It's wall space. And Ponies compete with my books and the books are winning.

I should stop buying both. But do I? Noooooooooope!
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Noooooooo sadly I don’t have the floor space in my room for something that large. But I still think about it and how I could rearrange my furniture to accommodate it. Lol
 
Dang, it was a good buy. Still, you're right, it was huge! That just means you'll get something better down the lane that will be a 100% better fit for your space.

I am always mentally redoing the house, trying to figure out how to squeeze out more room. My 75 year old aunt lives with us now, and I want more of her stuff out, so she'll be more 'part of the place' so to speak.
 
Tak said:
So... my blind spot is permanent. It did shrink a little bit, though. I'm under strict orders to avoid my known migraine triggers like the plague.
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Well blankety blank blank blank it. I was so hoping they could address that somehow. I'm sorry Tak.

Migraines do so much damage you wouldn't think of. I had to have a neurologist look at me once because all the black spots appeared on an MRI (or CAT scan, I forget which was first, I had to have both) and make the doctor think I had tumours. Ends up the black spots were literally little regions of dead brain cells that died during migrains, because the blood flow got cut off to them. I was stunned.

Although it's so surprise I'm brain damaged. :D
 
evilbunnyfoofoo said:
Well blankety blank blank blank it. I was so hoping they could address that somehow. I'm sorry Tak.

Migraines do so much damage you wouldn't think of. I had to have a neurologist look at me once because all the black spots appeared on an MRI (or CAT scan, I forget which was first, I had to have both) and make the doctor think I had tumours. Ends up the black spots were literally little regions of dead brain cells that died during migrains, because the blood flow got cut off to them. I was stunned.

Although it's so surprise I'm brain damaged. :D
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:xmashug: my brain mri is clean and healthy, but they said that the concussions caused me to have altered connections. So I'm like a different breed now. (That's how I look at it). They won't do one of the scans that actually shows brain activity. So while I don't have any dead tissue, they still consider it damaged since I had to re-learn how to speak after one and various other symptoms. My psychologist also said that my brain didn't form normal connections. I'd be so fascinated to see a scan of the electric activity in there. Insurance would never pay for such a thing and only the fanciest hospital's have them.

If you're brain damaged, it's the good kind. ;)

As for storage... I have three empty closets, five or six empty cupboards, two empty shelves, a giant yard (for a house that is a mile from the biggest freeway intersection in town and three blocks from the hospital), a whole room that's empty, and I can actually fit my car in my one car garage. I also have tons of empty Rubbermaid tubs, shoe boxes, plastic storage containers, and the garage cupboard is empty. I could easily have 20 kids running around in the open floor space. I have the opposite problem from yours. All this space and nothing to put in it! 1525 sq ft house for just us three. It makes me feel gluttonous. :confused:. We are very lucky to be able to live here.
 
I think candy pumpkins are my favorite candy this year
 
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I think candy pumpkins are my favorite candy this year
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I’m really loving these zombie gummy bear type candies I found. I am ashamed (but not really) to admit that I have bought three bags now. *head desk*

evilbunnyfoofoo said:
Well blankety blank blank blank it. I was so hoping they could address that somehow. I'm sorry Tak.

Migraines do so much damage you wouldn't think of. I had to have a neurologist look at me once because all the black spots appeared on an MRI (or CAT scan, I forget which was first, I had to have both) and make the doctor think I had tumours. Ends up the black spots were literally little regions of dead brain cells that died during migrains, because the blood flow got cut off to them. I was stunned.

Although it's so surprise I'm brain damaged. :D
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I guess we’re all slightly damaged here. Lol I have dead brain cells as well, but those are legions due to MS.

Tak said:
:xmashug: my brain mri is clean and healthy, but they said that the concussions caused me to have altered connections. So I'm like a different breed now. (That's how I look at it). They won't do one of the scans that actually shows brain activity. So while I don't have any dead tissue, they still consider it damaged since I had to re-learn how to speak after one and various other symptoms. My psychologist also said that my brain didn't form normal connections. I'd be so fascinated to see a scan of the electric activity in there. Insurance would never pay for such a thing and only the fanciest hospital's have them.

If you're brain damaged, it's the good kind. ;)

As for storage... I have three empty closets, five or six empty cupboards, two empty shelves, a giant yard (for a house that is a mile from the biggest freeway intersection in town and three blocks from the hospital), a whole room that's empty, and I can actually fit my car in my one car garage. I also have tons of empty Rubbermaid tubs, shoe boxes, plastic storage containers, and the garage cupboard is empty. I could easily have 20 kids running around in the open floor space. I have the opposite problem from yours. All this space and nothing to put in it! 1525 sq ft house for just us three. It makes me feel gluttonous. :confused:. We are very lucky to be able to live here.
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I would say there’s a bit of good news hidden in that they didn’t find anything new in your scans. But I feel your vision issue, only mines the opposite. In my last MS attack I lost peripheral vision in my right eye and it hasn’t returned (usually it comes back). I also tend to get a lot of pain behind the eye. So, I know how you feel and how frustrating it is to suddenly loose something as vital as your vision. But I hope the doctors can start to get you more comfy soon so you can start to get back to a more “normal” you.
 
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I’m really loving these zombie gummy bear type candies I found. I am ashamed (but not really) to admit that I have bought three bags now. *head desk*


I guess we’re all slightly damaged here. Lol I have dead brain cells as well, but those are legions due to MS.


I would say there’s a bit of good news hidden in that they didn’t find anything new in your scans. But I feel your vision issue, only mines the opposite. In my last MS attack I lost peripheral vision in my right eye and it hasn’t returned (usually it comes back). I also tend to get a lot of pain behind the eye. So, I know how you feel and how frustrating it is to suddenly loose something as vital as your vision. But I hope the doctors can start to get you more comfy soon so you can start to get back to a more “normal” you.
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I'll be happy if I can just get use of my arm back. I can handle pain, but I just keep dropping things or being unable to move it. I might as well cut it off and have a hook. It would be more useful. :confused:
 
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I'll be happy if I can just get use of my arm back. I can handle pain, but I just keep dropping things or being unable to move it. I might as well cut it off and have a hook. It would be more useful. :confused:
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I have high hopes for your shoulder. My neighbour recently had his worked on and it was a remarkable change for him! He can do things again, and needless to say, he's delighted. I'm hoping you have a similar outcome.

I go in November for them to look at my knee. At this point I'm no longer looking at tendon repair, but partial knee replacement. I've had a very physical life, running, farmwork, general idiocy, so that's not really a shocker. Like you, I can deal with the pain, but not being able to bend, kneel or ever walk well is killing me. I don't like being still.

@Skybreeze We'll call ourselves the TP's Brain Dead Darlings!
 
evilbunnyfoofoo said:
I have high hopes for your shoulder. My neighbour recently had his worked on and it was a remarkable change for him! He can do things again, and needless to say, he's delighted. I'm hoping you have a similar outcome.

I go in November for them to look at my knee. At this point I'm no longer looking at tendon repair, but partial knee replacement. I've had a very physical life, running, farmwork, general idiocy, so that's not really a shocker. Like you, I can deal with the pain, but not being able to bend, kneel or ever walk well is killing me. I don't like being still.

@Skybreeze We'll call ourselves the TP's Brain Dead Darlings!
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BDD! :lolpony: Loving it.

@evilbunnyfoofoo it's not in my shoulder. The latest shoulder surgeon did new scans and just couldn't find anything that could be causing my symptoms, much less surgically repair.
He had me get neck trays and then a neck mri. The degeneration in my neck is like that they would normally see in people 50+ or with great trauma. I've had trauma and apparently, genetically, I won the lotto, again. So they've got me on the urgent track to neck surgery, such that my pinched nerve doesn't cause permanent damage. I meet with the neurosurgeon on Tuesday. It's kind of sad because I'm not so much scared of the surgery and the complications or scars... I'm terrified of having to stay at the hospital for more than a day. They'll drug me so I'm sure I'll sleep, but I can't keep my Wesley with me since I won't be capable of caring for him. My poor daughter is very stoic about needing to stay with grandma, but Wesley doesn't like my mom and I worry that having to stay with her will go badly. I'm glad Evelyn will have his company, but if she's left in charge of him, she'll forget to let him out or feed him. I'm also scared because I've had some bad experiences in hospitals and my hallucinations are worse. Maybe they're ghosts and I'm not really hallucinating, but it's awful. :cry: Everything I've read says 3-7 days in the hospital and two months not lifting anything over 5lbs or moving my neck, of course. Total of 4 months minimum recovery expected before being able to resume normal activities for me. Still no heavy lifting, minimal driving, and pt until I hit six months. Assuming everything goes well.

I'm actually glad to hear you're looking at replacement instead of repair. My only rl friend had hers repaired twice and she's my age. They won't repair a third time since it's not working. She wishes they'd replaced the joint the second time. It hurts her so much. She's like us, in that the pain isn't the main issue, but it still just doesn't work well for her. I hope yours goes well. You'll have to send me the date and your information so I can send a get well box. (I love sending them :winkpony:)
 
At 52, I figure I might as well have them replace it. It's more expense so there'll be more debt, but I know it'll have to be done sooner than later anyway. I have really trashed my body over the years. :D

I sure wish you were closer. Kiddo and poochie could stay with me, then you wouldn't need to worry about puppy care. I'm not bragging, but MAN I AM SO GOOD WITH ANIMALS AND KIDS. *pets own back* LOL. Plus it would be fun to have a kidlet around for a change.

Maybe they really aren't hallucinations. My people 100% believe in a spirit world that overlaps ours. Maybe your ancestors are just staying close in case you need them. It's always a possibility. Being alone in the hospital is scary, especially at night. I had to do several nights at the hospital while they were packing it up to move to a new building and it was unnerving. They just aren't happy places to me. At least though this might actually address your mobility issues and cure it. I certainly hope so.

When will you go in? Do you have a date yet?
 
evilbunnyfoofoo said:
At 52, I figure I might as well have them replace it. It's more expense so there'll be more debt, but I know it'll have to be done sooner than later anyway. I have really trashed my body over the years. :D

I sure wish you were closer. Kiddo and poochie could stay with me, then you wouldn't need to worry about puppy care. I'm not bragging, but MAN I AM SO GOOD WITH ANIMALS AND KIDS. *pets own back* LOL. Plus it would be fun to have a kidlet around for a change.

Maybe they really aren't hallucinations. My people 100% believe in a spirit world that overlaps ours. Maybe your ancestors are just staying close in case you need them. It's always a possibility. Being alone in the hospital is scary, especially at night. I had to do several nights at the hospital while they were packing it up to move to a new building and it was unnerving. They just aren't happy places to me. At least though this might actually address your mobility issues and cure it. I certainly hope so.

When will you go in? Do you have a date yet?
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I prefer to believe in the spirit world. I can't say that to most people, though. I have my surgery consult tomorrow and hopefully they will get started on setting the date. I'm not sure if my insurance will require prior authorization. That usually takes a week.
I'm willing to bet that Evelyn and Wesley would much rather stay with you. My girl loves her grandma, but she doesn't like how my mom treats me and Wesley.
 
Tak said:
I prefer to believe in the spirit world. I can't say that to most people, though. I have my surgery consult tomorrow and hopefully they will get started on setting the date. I'm not sure if my insurance will require prior authorization. That usually takes a week.
I'm willing to bet that Evelyn and Wesley would much rather stay with you. My girl loves her grandma, but she doesn't like how my mom treats me and Wesley.
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I would totally offer to help if I were closer as well. I am rather popular with minions and animals as well.
 
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So the past week or so the weather has been beautiful fall temperatures where I live. Now for the past few days it’s been kinda gloomy and rainy. Today was no different really, except that it was warmer again (and getting warmer into Tuesday).

My migraines have been SO good and tolerable. But today and now it’s almost completely unbearable again. I keep saying it’s weather/air pressure related over strictly my MS but no one seems to want to entertain this idea. All I know is this is now the third night in a row and I want to gouge my brain out of my skull. :madpony::cry:
 
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So the past week or so the weather has been beautiful fall temperatures where I live. Now for the past few days it’s been kinda gloomy and rainy. Today was no different really, except that it was warmer again (and getting warmer into Tuesday).

My migraines have been SO good and tolerable. But today and now it’s almost completely unbearable again. I keep saying it’s weather/air pressure related over strictly my MS but no one seems to want to entertain this idea. All I know is this is now the third night in a row and I want to gouge my brain out of my skull. :madpony::cry:
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I fully agree with the weather and air pressure playing a huge part in pain. My mother, brother, and rl friend do, too. Mind, we have so much pollen of so much variety up here, that most can't deny it. After a nice week of rainy days in the mid '50's to mid '60's, we'll get a sunny or windy day and it sometimes feels like a kick in the face. Aside from allergies, they're a major migraine trigger.
For me, personally, the pain has been there for so long that I usually just notice the varying degrees of pressure in my head and I say it feels as though my brains will come out my ears. I get the visual effects with complex migraines, but it's not often that I allow myself to admit to headache.

Hugs and I hope you feel better. Here's to good weather!
 
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