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So... I have loved My Little Pony since I was a kid but right now I am having a crisis about how much I cannot stand MLPG5. It is not merely that I hate it, nor is it a "old better, new bad" kind of mindset. When G5 first came out I was super in love with it, bought every single toy and piece of merch, was mega excited for new content, basically one of the biggest G5 fans. But it crushed and disappointed me more than any other fictional thing, especially that the media completely sidelined my favorite pony ever Sprout. The 3D cartoon he was barely in ended, plus he isn't in the ongoing 2D cartoon AT ALL... and the toys are just a bunch of nothing now, and I dislike all the other characters now anyway.
Where am I going with this? Well, G5 is a severe trigger for me now, bigger than any other trigger I've had in my life, even moreso than severe and life-threatening things. You can laugh if you want, but every psychiatrist, doctor, and therapist I have talked to identifies it as a trigger and that my feelings are less like anger and upset and more like "a deep sense of grief and loss". I've had panic attacks and done bad things just from seeing pictures of G5, and it has only gotten worse and worse as the months and couple of years have passed--trying to overcome the trigger only backfired. As it is, I have a disorder that causes me to feel emotions extremely strongly. I have already gotten rid of hundreds of dollars worth of G5 stuff, and try to just focus on Sprout and previous gens and my own pony creations, but...
I feel as if I can never escape the pain unless I cut myself off from My Little Pony altogether (aside from Sprout specifically). I adore my old gen figures but my biggest comfort and my biggest trigger both being "My Little Pony" makes me feel distressed. Plus, whenever I google or search for previous gen MLP stuff, G5 stuff ALWAYS pops up even if it is completely unrelated to the ponies and topics I was searching for. I am trying to focus on making my own pony world and stories at the advice of a therapist, but it doesn't seem to be helping and I still keep spiraling.
I do not want to abandon My Little Pony, as there is no other IP that brings me near the amount of comfort and joy as MLP had. But I do not know if it is worth it now that it is pretty much "tainted" for me and even after G5 ends, it will still be around whenever I try to look for figures or art of other ponies. So I am not sure what to do. I have been struggling with this predicament for several months.
I wonder if anyone else has ever had thoughts of getting rid of their entire My Little Pony collection...
Where am I going with this? Well, G5 is a severe trigger for me now, bigger than any other trigger I've had in my life, even moreso than severe and life-threatening things. You can laugh if you want, but every psychiatrist, doctor, and therapist I have talked to identifies it as a trigger and that my feelings are less like anger and upset and more like "a deep sense of grief and loss". I've had panic attacks and done bad things just from seeing pictures of G5, and it has only gotten worse and worse as the months and couple of years have passed--trying to overcome the trigger only backfired. As it is, I have a disorder that causes me to feel emotions extremely strongly. I have already gotten rid of hundreds of dollars worth of G5 stuff, and try to just focus on Sprout and previous gens and my own pony creations, but...
I feel as if I can never escape the pain unless I cut myself off from My Little Pony altogether (aside from Sprout specifically). I adore my old gen figures but my biggest comfort and my biggest trigger both being "My Little Pony" makes me feel distressed. Plus, whenever I google or search for previous gen MLP stuff, G5 stuff ALWAYS pops up even if it is completely unrelated to the ponies and topics I was searching for. I am trying to focus on making my own pony world and stories at the advice of a therapist, but it doesn't seem to be helping and I still keep spiraling.
I do not want to abandon My Little Pony, as there is no other IP that brings me near the amount of comfort and joy as MLP had. But I do not know if it is worth it now that it is pretty much "tainted" for me and even after G5 ends, it will still be around whenever I try to look for figures or art of other ponies. So I am not sure what to do. I have been struggling with this predicament for several months.
I wonder if anyone else has ever had thoughts of getting rid of their entire My Little Pony collection...