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So I just can't get motivated. Ugh...
I had a baby 7 months ago and I gained a bunch of weight. I used to be a model. I went from 145 to 200 lbs during the pregnancy. By the last two months of the pregnancy I was so big and such a high risk pregnancy I could hardly walk to get to the bathroom and each time I tried to get up - I went into preterm labor, Sooo the doctors said - no walking, no moving until the baby was full term. I was bedridden for two months till I had the baby, and then for another month after I gave birth. I love my baby but now that she's older I look at myself in the mirror and I don't recognize myself. I can finally walk and exercise again, but I'm still over 170 lbs, I feel like I've aged 20 years in the space of one year since I got pregnant. For the first time in my life, I feel old and fat. While my beautiful little girl gives me complete joy, when I look in the mirror I don't like what I see.
I really miss being able to fit in my cute dresses and other outfits. Nothing fits.... well except my mother's old clothes she gave me because my pre-pregnancy wardrobe is too small.
So yeah, I hate this. Not that my mom chooses ugly clothes, it's just she's 60! I don't want to dress like a 60 year old! I have tried to talk myself into buying new clothes but every time I go to the store, I try something on and I hate it. I end up leaving everything in the dressing room and leaving without buying a thing.
Yet, I just can't get motivated to work out or eat right. I MADE myself only eat vegan meals for the last three days, and so far, so good. I do feel a little better... but I've never been this much heavier and I'm worried I won't be able to get back to my pre-pregnancy size. I know I need to hit the stairmaster hard and the exercize bike but I really don't want to do it.
Help! How do you get motivated when you just can't seem to do it?
I had a baby 7 months ago and I gained a bunch of weight. I used to be a model. I went from 145 to 200 lbs during the pregnancy. By the last two months of the pregnancy I was so big and such a high risk pregnancy I could hardly walk to get to the bathroom and each time I tried to get up - I went into preterm labor, Sooo the doctors said - no walking, no moving until the baby was full term. I was bedridden for two months till I had the baby, and then for another month after I gave birth. I love my baby but now that she's older I look at myself in the mirror and I don't recognize myself. I can finally walk and exercise again, but I'm still over 170 lbs, I feel like I've aged 20 years in the space of one year since I got pregnant. For the first time in my life, I feel old and fat. While my beautiful little girl gives me complete joy, when I look in the mirror I don't like what I see.
I really miss being able to fit in my cute dresses and other outfits. Nothing fits.... well except my mother's old clothes she gave me because my pre-pregnancy wardrobe is too small.
So yeah, I hate this. Not that my mom chooses ugly clothes, it's just she's 60! I don't want to dress like a 60 year old! I have tried to talk myself into buying new clothes but every time I go to the store, I try something on and I hate it. I end up leaving everything in the dressing room and leaving without buying a thing.
Yet, I just can't get motivated to work out or eat right. I MADE myself only eat vegan meals for the last three days, and so far, so good. I do feel a little better... but I've never been this much heavier and I'm worried I won't be able to get back to my pre-pregnancy size. I know I need to hit the stairmaster hard and the exercize bike but I really don't want to do it.
Help! How do you get motivated when you just can't seem to do it?