I think I'm ready to try regrounding positivity again.
I got a new counselor after 2 months of no counselor at all. I massively declined in that time but I got a sudden burst of happiness after my first appointment. The lady is my type of people. She's quirky, has green hair, has one of the same ptsd triggers that I do and we vibe off the deep end. I walked into McDonalds smiling under my mask aftetwards lol
I hope I can get back on the up-slope now.
Before I thought counseling didn't really do much and I just wanted to get medicated, but I just found out first hand that I can't move forward without it.